Miss

I miss writing whatever I want.
I miss typing every single letter, every single word.

Oh, I miss you blog.
I have plenty of things in my draft, but they're staying there.
Never gonna be published, never to be read by others, except me.

Babies

I absolutely love babies and I cannot deny it.

Whenever I see a tiny tot within my radius, I would steal quick glances and try to play with them from afar. There is quite a few times a baby would suddenly smile or laugh or stop crying even and left the parents to be confused for a short moment before finding the source of change of emotion. I would then pretend to act casual because I find little joy in such situation.

Those tiny hands, curious minds, brings me happiness.

I love it most when a baby comes to me and greet me with two hands, asking for a hug, instead of a hand, asking for a handshake. The babies in Ottawa greet me with the former. It's so cute that sometimes when they see me, they would come to me to say hi, instead of the other way round. A proof that I managed to steal their hearts. ;D

Currently, I am watching Appa Odiga (I blame Ninie for this).

It's a reality show about kids going for camping trips with their dads. I'm a sucker for kids, so, I can't stop watching it. My favorite would be Yoon Hoo because he is the kind of kid I would love to talk with (Sometimes, I think I like to play and talk with babies because I can avoid the adults... Heh). Coincidentally, he was the chubbiest too (I want chubby kids because they're cute) but he grew up already and is not so chubby anymore :( (Oh well, he's healthier now!).

Ahh, can I have babies now?

That reminds me of a friend that has just delivered a baby boy a few weeks ago. Her baby is so cute, I fell in love the second I laid my eyes on him. Hee. Anyways, she retold her experience delivering the baby right from the first contraction to after the baby was born. It's amazing and terrifying at the same time. Everything went well for her, alhamdulillah. The next few days, I visited her again, and she had huge eyebags and she looked so tired. I guess, it's the sacrifice you have to make when you become a mother.

Hmm. For now, I think I can wait to have my own babies and just play with others' kids.
Fun without all the responsibilities. :P

Abaya

I would have inserted a picture of me in abaya here but I don't have any. Heh.

So, last night was my first time ever wearing one, and it was borrowed from a sister because we wanted to go to the mosque for tarawih prayer. I didn't bring any proper clothing with me, hence, me in abaya...

It would be my first time ever to perform tarawih prayer in a mosque here as well. I didn't expect a lot of people but the mosque was full. With all the grannies praying on the chair against the wall, reminds me of my own nenek.

I miss tarawih prayers in Kuching. Every Ramadan, my dad and I would perform tarawih at different mosques every other night just because. It's just our thing. :)

Ahh, I miss Ramadan atmosphere in Kuching/Malaysia.

Ramadan

Ramadan started two days ago, and currently on our third day.

This would be my first experience fasting overseas, alone and lonely... Right. So far, I survived two days of almost 18 hours of no food and drink. It was not as bad as I thought it would be, I guess. Hopefully, I am not a stick by the end of this holy month.

I had my first sahur and sungkei alone. People did invite me to come over to their house to sahur and sungkei together but being me, I passed up that opportunity. I think it's too much of a hassle for me to move around and sleep at another person's house. I also would like to avoid any awkwardness because I like doing things at my own pace. I'll take up that offer some other day. I would love to tarawih in a jumaah. However, for now, I'm fine on my own.

(I would like to avoid any sort of human interaction because I am emo liddattt.)

Ohhh, I have so much hope for this Ramadan.

One of them is to fill this with more colors.

Selamat menghidupkan Ramadan. :)

Dog

On my way home last night, I was attacked by a dog!

A bit exaggerated maybe but the dog did pounce on me from behind. I stood still, unable to process what had happened in a blink of an eye, or none in my case, maybe.

It happened so sudden that I couldn't react more to it. First, I saw a dog running towards me and I panicked a bit but still managed to play it cool. I saw the owner walking beside him so I thought this was a normal dog. However, the fact that it had no leash on was the sole reason I panicked.

When the dog passed by me, I was relieved. A woman was shouting at the dog from an opened door at a house nearby. I thought the dog would listen and stop running so freely and boy, was I wrong...

I have only taken a few steps before I felt a momentum from behind. I stopped walking and felt that heavy body on my back. I didn't even turn my head to see what's happening and just stood there, waiting for miracles to happen. -.-

A few seconds later, the dog came down from me and ran back towards the house, I guess. I didn't turn around and just walked straight to my house. The owner kept on apologizing for the dog's behaviour even though I was already miles away.

I reached home safely and processed what had happened.
And that was my first 'interaction' with a dog ever.

Hello, German Shepherd! It was nice of you to pounce on me...