Fishy

I have never cooked a fish. A real fish.

The other day, I went to the mini market and thought to myself, it has been a while since I ate a fish. (Fine, I saw my housemate buying sardines so I thought I would buy a packet for myself too.)

Little that I know that it was fish fish! The real thing with all the guts and stuff still inside...

Today, I feel lazy to cook something fancy or complicated and decided to fry the fish instead. I took out the fish for defrosting and when I returned two hours later, I saw those clean uncut untouched fish bellies...

I cleaned the fish under running tap water while removing the scales and tried to figure out ways to remove the yucky stuff. I positioned the knife right under the belly and thought 'I think I should do it like this' and gave up seconds later, running to Maryam to ask for her guidance.

'Who asked you to buy fish? I don't know how to either' was her reply...

She googled how to clean fish for me and we watched it together. Malaysia should have more cooking shows! The ones on youtube are videos of fishermen on a boat and some granny cutting fish near a longkang with cats around her. -_-"

When I gained enough confidence, I ran back to the kitchen and gathered all my will to slice open and remove the guts like how they did it in the video. I didn't even touch the fish directly with my whole hand. I scrapped and pull out whatever is inside with a geli look on my face (chanting 'ew, ew ew' in my head).

The fact that my mom told me to be careful because I might find worms inside frozen sardines is not helping at all!! Why mom, why?

To be safe, I even cut off the fish's head because I was scared that I might have not completely pulled out everything. I felt so bad because I know that's not the proper way to cut a fish and when I threw the head away, I felt like it was staring back at me, asking me why did I do that to it. -.-

Well, good news is, I finally did it and the fish is safe inside my tummy now.

Bad news is, I still have 8 more fish in the fridge. T_T